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scrambled thoughts enter and exit my mind as lighting, "i love you" "i dont" the soft mumbles in my ear the wind tells storys , as i wish they are true i listen to them, tears may fall, smiles may be shown, truth may be wished, but it will never come, the wind gets mad at this thought swirls around my head, wraping around my thoughts, like a snake on the hunt. sqaushing what ever doubt i had abou thte storys of the wind they want me to believe them, cause they know it will make me happy

sitting, waiting, there is no comfort in waiting here for you, sitting means thinking, thinking means you, you means forgotten. i am ur forgotten, will you ever remeber? can the forgotten be remembered? will i sit here for a lifetime and wait for my thousand mile journey with you and not take one step, will i forever be the undecided color, cause i need a home , a colorful home. one color is all i ask for, one color and i will be yours, as long is you dont leave agian, taking all the color with you, leaving my world to black and white no beauty, no feelings, just black,just white. and when u come back to me i see the yellow

walking past a house with abandoned dreams, she hears the trees screaming, yelling, begging for someone to come to there side. they will die soon , they are trees of dreams and all the dreams are gone

as the rain pours down upon me, i look up at the sky, feeling the little miracles it is droping on the earth. as they hit my head, and drip down into my mouth, i taste the faith that was put in them. i feel the earth as it gets a bath, the bath of a life time. Bringing child out of there homes, to play with these little miracles one by one the children get hit by the drops. as there smile gets bigger and bigger faith is flowing into them. washing all there worries away, dragging there fears out of there head, and on to the street to get washed away.

pigments of yellow shine in ur eyes yellow blasts off ur skin as if u were the sun melting my heart yellow swirls around ur body like clouds on a stormy day waiting for rain and pulling me in ur yellow urthe only yellow there is and yellow is the greatest thatanyone can ever be its heals the mind and eases the body creates a temple of rhythm that only i can hear beating softly against my ear words that come into my head as if the yellow in ur body is saying them singing them in a soft yellow voice that  makes u want to dance and sing in a pattern of great joy a precise movement that only the people of the yellow know a loving

throw me a rope to hold me in place, just for a moment, in peace. love and laughter for ever more. take my hand  never let go bring to me to heaven, bring me to hell because all will forever be well. death will be death, and love will be love, but what will it be, when life is okay, will there ever really be an okay? life may be good, life may be bad. but life will never be okay.

does ur hand feel warm when it is the holder of ur lovers, cause its not when its the holder of mine, do ur tears dry when u think about another, cause with me they  seem to never go away. does u heart break everytime u take a step away from me, cause my is already broken. does ur body hurt from living life, mine does from being broken. do u want ur eyes to be blind, so u dont have to look at my wiltering face. do u want to pretend like this never happened. cause i cant IT WILL NEVER GO AWAY

what is life is just a dream would leaves just be just are imagination what if we were really locked up ina cell and we were making life up in are head we imagined how beautiful the world is would we be lonely making up all the relationships in are head pretending that someone loves us knowing that the only thing that knos the smell of are hair is the pillows the only thing that knos the ways of are body is are blankets the only thing that knos the sound of are tears are the blank walls surrounding us what if life is just a dream?

the rain comes down washing away ur scent from my skin the rain comes down hiding my tears from the world the rain comes down bringin a knife along with it the rain comes down as an innocent girl brings the knife to her throat the rain comes down to hide the sounds of gasping the rain comes down washing the blood away the rain comes down hiding the evidence the rain came down when she died for u

"come on, lets run away" shes says with the first smile hes seen on her face for 26 days. "we can run into the ocean and swim with the sea,kiss under the stars, it will just be u and me". still smiling placing her hand on this then placing his hand on her heart. "of course we can". Knowing this is the only way he will see her smile,and knowing he cant live another 26 days with her smile warming his mind,heart, and soul. but then reality hits him. "but baby ur sick" knowing that she will dies any day causes the kemo isnt working and her heart is starting to fade Her smile turns to a sad line "then lets go to the beach and put are feet in